1 Corinthians 7:32-35
32 I would like you to be free from concern. An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord’s affairs—how he can please the Lord. 33 But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife— 34 and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband. 35 I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.
Prepare for rambling as my focus is limited.
I’ve written little lately. I’ve read little lately. Sadly, I’ve thought little lately. What did come to mind was this passage above and how very true it is. I need to refocus and I think we all fall into this trap at times. Life is there and to live it and care for those around us, it is easy to forget why we are doing it.
I spoke to a priest about this once, how I fear I loved my family more than Our Lord. He said to me, loving your husband is loving Our Lord. We are called to do this. So care for your family and love your husband for this is your vocation.
These words will stick with me always. However, I tend to think where our focus is determines what we are doing. One can do the exact same actions with a different focus and our intentions will determine the reason we do them. There are times where I simply lose focus, where I care for and love my family because I am a wife and mother. Not because it is my vocation. Doing the exact same actions with a different focus can lead to very different results. When I love my family without focus on Our Lord, I fail more often. I get more tired, more irritated and less patient. When I think of my vocation, I am far more patient and I’m a better wife and mother.
So why do I lack focus? Why do I forget why I am doing these things? Getting sucked into the world is so easy to do. It’s a weird place of comfort with simultaneous discomfort. I’m still trying to figure out how to be in the world and not of it. I suspect it will take a life time.